Friday, October 29, 2004

Who I wanna be...

My Inner Hero - Paladin!



I'm a Paladin!


I strive to help others, and to bring truth and harmony to the world however I can. Whether times are good or bad, you can always count on me. I'm a shoulder to cry on, a champion for the helpless, and an all around nice person.



How about you? Click here to find your own inner hero.

Monday, October 25, 2004

Only Time

I can handle things when I know I can do something about it. I can also handle things when I know there is nothing I can do about it. But right now..I am stuck in a situation where I feel I can do something but I have no clue how to go about doing it.. coz anything I do seems to only be able to make it worse... And everytime I think of it... I just feel like screaming out loud... get rid of the frustration...

And on top of it all, college is not exactly forgiving at this stage. Homeworks.. deadlines... papers... exams.

Who cares..right??

well.. anywayz.. life goes on.. and so it has been for a while.

I am scaring myself nowadays. Have become a hopeless romantic... complete anti-thesis of what I was. I'm hoping it's just another stage;). Just saw Notting Hill yesterday night. Or today morning... whatever it was.. saw it from 3-5am. It is that time of the night when I know I should sleep but I dont want to.

I'm waiting for father time to walk along.....to heal... to bring the future. The anticipation of leaving Purdue, my home for over 3 years... the friends I have made here.. and the thought of being a stranger in the middle of nowhere.... also seem to subtly influence my behaviour nowadays. I have begun cutting those strings ... spending more time with myself... so I get used to the lack of the company. Interesting...isnt it??

Added a few songs to the radio blog...
njoy them:)

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Lyrics and Music

Lyrics and Music

Everytime I think I dont want to blog...something comes up that makes me change my mind. Nowadays....I have just been a bit sensitive about a topic and I didnt want to bring it up on my blog. Thats why the desire for abstinence.....

but that doesnt happen.
I saw two good movies today. The first was a George Clooney film called "O Brother, Where art thou". It was a happy movie...with some good music.:). Made me happy...think positive thoughts.

Now...I just got done watching this korean movie called "My Sassy Girl". Ahhhh my heart is in bits and pieces now. Such a sweet movie.......made me laugh and made me cry. The only english song was this one...a song I have always heard somewhere and liked a lot:)

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day.
When it's cold outside I've got the month of May.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

I've got so much honey, the bees envy me.
I've got a sweeter song than the birds in the trees.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ooooh.

I don't need no money, fortune, or fame.
I've got all the riches baby one man can claim.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day
with my girl.
I've even got the month of May
with my girl (fade)

- The Temptations

Ahh....that music.
Maybe I'll put it on my radio blog....
:)

EDIT: I have put some of my fav songs on my radio blog. Just click to play....

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Second post of the day

Well..I had more or less decided I wouldnt post... but since I was on my blog...I visited a few blogs... and posted a few comments... and came across some interesting stuff... and so..all said and done...I found something to blog about. Traffic in India. Now... I have driven in India....I have been in teeny weeny accidents while riding my "Moped" around town...for a little over 4 years of my life. So... this though funny..is pretty true. I copied the joke... scoured the net.. and found reasonable pics of things that one can expect on Indian roads. Most images are linked to the site where I found them or to larger images. Read on....



Driving in India

For the benefit of every Tom, Dick and Harry visiting India and daring to drive on Indian roads, Here are some hints for survival. They are applicable to every place in India except the state of Bihar, where life outside a vehicle is only marginally safer. Indian road rules broadly operate within the domain of karma where you do your best, and leave the results to your insurance company.

The hints are as follows:

Do we drive on the left or right of the road?

a.. The answer is "both". You start on the left of the road, unless it is occupied. In that case, go to the right, unless that is also occupied. Then proceed by occupying the next available gap, as in chess. Just trust your instincts, ascertain the direction, and proceed. Adherence to road rules leads to much misery and occasional fatality. Most drivers don't drive, but just aim their vehicles in the intended direction. Don't get discouraged or underestimate yourself; except for a belief in reincarnation, the other drivers are not in any better position.

a.. Pedestrian Crossings: Don't stop at pedestrian crossings just because some fool wants to cross the road. You may do so only if you enjoy being bumped in the back. Pedestrians have been strictly instructed to cross only when traffic is moving slowly or has come to a dead stop because some minister is in town. Still some idiot may try to wade across, but then, let us not talk ill of the dead.

a.. Blowing your horn: is not a sign of protest as in some countries. We horn to express joy, resentment, frustration, romance and bare lust (two brisk blasts), or just to mobilize a dozing cow in the middle of the bazaar.

a.. Books: Keep informative books in the glove compartment. You may read them during traffic jams, while awaiting the chief minister's motorcade, or waiting for the rain-waters to recede when over-ground traffic meets underground drainage.

a.. Night driving and trucks: on Indian roads can be an exhilarating experience (for those with the mental makeup of Genghis Khan). In a way, it is like playing Russian roulette, because you do not know who amongst the drivers is loaded. What looks like premature dawn on the horizon turns out to be a truck attempting a speed record. On encountering it, just pull partly into the field adjoining the road until the phenomenon passes. Our roads do not have shoulders, but occasional boulders. Do not blink your lights expecting reciprocation. The only dim thing in the truck is the driver, and with the peg of illicit arrack (alcohol) he has had at the last stop, his total cerebral functions add up to little more than a naught.

Truck drivers are the James Bonds of India, and are licensed to kill. Often you may encounter a single powerful beam of light about six feet above the ground. This is not a super motorbike, but a truck approaching you with a single light on, usually the left one. It could be the right one, but never get too close to investigate. You may prove your point posthumously. Of course, all this occurs at night, on the trunk roads.

a.. Daytime driving and trucks: During the daytime, trucks are more visible, except that the drivers will never show any signal. (And you must watch for the absent signals; they are the greater threat). Only, you will often observe that the cleaner who sits next to the driver, will project his hand and wave hysterically. This is definitely not to be construed as a signal for a left turn. The waving is just an expression of physical relief on a hot day.

a.. UFOs: Occasionally you might see what looks like a UFO with blinking colored lights and weird sounds emanating from within. This is an illuminated bus, full of happy pilgrims singing bhajans. These pilgrims go at breakneck speed, seeking contact with the Almighty, often meeting with success.

Auto Rickshaw (Baby Taxi):

a.. The result of a collision between a rickshaw and an automobile, this three-wheeled vehicle works on an external combustion engine that runs on a mixture of kerosene oil and creosote. This triangular vehicle carries iron rods, gas cylinders or passengers three times its weight and dimension, at an unspecified fare. After careful geometric calculations, children are folded and packed into these auto rickshaws until some children in the periphery are not in contact with the vehicle at all. Then their school bags are pushed into the microscopic gaps all round so those minor collisions with other vehicles on the road cause no permanent damage. Of course, the peripheral children are charged half the fare and also learn Newton's laws of motion enroute to school. Auto-rickshaw drivers follow the road rules depicted in the film Ben Hur, and are licensed to irritate.

Mopeds:

a.. The moped looks like an oil tin on wheels and makes noise like an electric shaver. It runs 30 miles on a teaspoon of petrol and travels at break-bottom speed. As the sides of the road are too rough for a ride, the moped drivers tend to drive in the middle of the road; they would rather drive under heavier vehicles instead of around them and are often "mopped" off the tarmac.

Leaning Tower of Passes:

a.. Most bus passengers are given free passes and during rush hours, there is absolute mayhem. There are passengers hanging off other passengers, who in turn hang off the railings and the overloaded bus leans dangerously, defying laws of gravity but obeying laws of surface tension. As drivers get paid for overload (so many Rupees per kg of passenger), no questions are ever asked. Steer clear of these buses by a width of three passengers.

One-way Street:

a.. These boards are put up by traffic people to add jest in their otherwise drab lives. Don't stick to the literal meaning and proceed in one direction. In metaphysical terms, it means that you cannot proceed in two directions at once. So drive as you like, in reverse throughout, if you are the fussy type.

a.. Lest I sound hypercritical, I must add a positive point also. rash and fast driving in residential areas has been prevented by providing a "speed breaker"; two for each house. This mound, incidentally, covers the water and drainage pipes for that residence and is left untarred for easy identification by the corporation authorities, should they want to recover the pipe for year-end accounting. If, after all this, you still want to drive in India, have your lessons between 8 pm and 11 am-when the police have gone home. The citizen is then free to enjoy the 'FREEDOM OF SPEED' enshrined in the Indian constitution.

Having said all this, the accident rate and related deaths are less in India compared to US or other countries!!



Nice Links:
http://pages.intnet.mu/fullspot/India.htm
http://www.martinbray-ukloco.com/goaattractions.htm

Today

Back from California.
just got a few things occupying my mind nowadays.. and I dont think I can update my blog for a while.
Hope you have a Great time....
And to keep me thinking positive...I have this picture...of a beautiful village in the swiss alps......

Friday, October 08, 2004

Amazon.com: Books: Heidi (Children's Classics)

Amazon.com: Books: Heidi (Children's Classics)

Remember that mountain paradise that I spoke of..... It is based off a mental image that I had as a child.. from this wonderful book: Heidi.

saw Love Actually once again.......

"All you need is love....(pipipepepeee) All you need is loove(pipipepepee)... All you need is love...love... love is all you need!!!"

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Its a beautiful dayyyyyyyy

Well Well Well
2 nights of staying up till late. Very Late. and getting verrry little sleep. But I am pumped. (Sleepy... but pumped). You know why? Coz I am DONE!!!! (with my homework of course...:S). Was up till 5:30am Wed morning to finish a homework due at 1:30 on Wed. Then... spent all day and all night in lab (except for 2 hrs when I ate dinner..relaxed..and went back). So.. was in lab till 5:30am again..on Thursday... ended up sleeping at 7. Woke up at 10:35 to come to work. And here I am... half dozing... a third awake... and a third Pumped :D. Hehehehe. I think I survive on adrenalin alone at times like thisss....and that makes me hyper!!!

sheesh..I can barely type. Circuits keep swimming in my brain as voltage rails stretch away to infinity....and I realize..I am dreaming....or is the term nightmaring real? In either case... as my title says.. its a BEEYOOOTEEEFOOL day!!!. So enjoyyy people... for this is one more day for you to make the most of what you have.

P.S. Once I get my laundry done ...I can get readddyyyy to leave forrrrrr Sann Franciscoooooooooooo!!! yeppp pplz... I am spending my 4 day october break (including this weekend) in sunny San Francisco at my sisterrsss place. Wahoooooooooooooogaaaaa!!!

Monday, October 04, 2004

No man is an island

No man is an island...... or for that matter... no person is an island..or can be.

Just saw the movie "About a Boy"... pretty nice film... subtle... funny... and ahh... it made me cringe at points..where I realized the little hero commit some of those social blunders. All in all..the movie told me... No man is an island. As li'l Marcus tells us... We all need backup. In family. In friends. In enemies. Thats what makes life worth living.... never for yourself.. but for others. Of course.. that doesnt mean you dont be self centred. You just be self centred to the right extent.

My horoscope for the day, courtesy yahoo:> The water is not as perilous as it seems. The tide will lead you back to shore.

Hehe

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Our Father, who art in heaven......

Today, the 2nd of October, is the day that Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi came into this world in 1869. More commonly known as Mahatma Gandhi. This man, dared to dream. He dared others to follow his dream. One involving non violence. Involving intellect rather than brawn. He, was a true geek. He used the strength of his mind to bring down an empire that had been built by using mind power to overcome sheer numbers.

As I see it, the British used psychological warfare to take over, and control their colonies. And Mahatma Gandhi was one of those who realized that. So..he fought mind with mind.. and had his original dream come true, he would have achieved success without any bloodshed. I have read about people who felt that Gandhi was not secular. That he had many faults. And I totally agree with them. After all, he was human. But the main point of the matter was that he dared to dream.. and dared others to make his dream come true. It is this spirit that I truly admire.

Thinking of Gandhi reminded me of my own grandfather. As far as I know, my grandfathers were not anti british. In fact.. they were probably pro british. Both of them lived pretty pro-western lives and they seemed to like western goods. And neither of them were freedom fighters. As far as I know.

I have this deep desire to talk with my grandfathers. Find out what their lives were like. Find out how they coped with it. Somehow, I feel a very close relationship with my maternal grandfather. I wish that he had not passed away...only those 3 years ago. I wish he was alive today..to see me as I am... and discuss with me, about life. At this juncture in life, when so much seems to be making sense.. and yet so much is a maze, I wish he was here to just speak with me. And then again...I feel his touch. I think of him smiling at me from heaven... and able to hear every word I think.

My paternal grandfather died before I was born. I was named after him. To this day, I hear stories about his brilliance and his extremely naughty childhood. But what was he like? Who can tell me? Maybe I should ask my grandmother.... or my dad. My dad told me that he was very close to his father. Sometime...I should make time and talk to him about this.

random thought
Once again, it makes me think, everything major that one learns in life, one learns from one's own experiences. One can be taught only so much. Once again.....I come to Siddhartha...by Hermann Hesse (do read my earlier blog on it...if u want more info).
So, what will I learn? What am I learning??
/random thought


Today, I went with some friends to a party. An Indian Student Association After party actually...at a bar. But I felt so out of place there. I somehow... suddenly realized.. that I am a useless conversationalist. I can talk forever... but I cannot maintain a conversation. I run out of topics pretty fast. Well.. anyway...I ended up being the designated driver for a friend's car (being sober..).. and I ended up talking with another friend on the phone for an hour... while my friends went to an After After party after the bar closed, at another guy's apartment. And I wonder why I even try. I try to fit into something I cannot. I mean, I get along fine with these guys in normal life. But I just cannot party the way they do.

I just feel so different here. I should head home. To India. And live in a remote corner of the mountains. where there is a morning mist... and little flocks of sheep... and gardens...or atleast greenery. Ahh to live in such a paradise.

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