Web Work

Well,

I finally got most of the website done. It is linked above. And what else... spent most of Saturday, and a greater part of the wee hours of the night into Sunday on it. Later ... did more homework (team meetings) and then.. chilled out with some friends. Then watched the movie "Shaun of the dead". If you dont mind some meaningless blood and gore, this is a HILARIOUS brit movie!! Yeahh!!

Now am reading Pride and Prejudice.

I was reading about the terrible incident in Russia. Just a few months ago, a large number of school children died in a fire accident in Tamil Nadu, India (Link). And now... around 350 ppl dead... including atleast 150 children. Many kids are missing too... as young as 3 years old. It pains the heart to think of those parents and children. My heartfelt condolences to all those people who have lost someone near and dear.

It is at times like this, that I wonder, is this one of nature's ways of controlling population. No, I DO NOT condone such acts. I just wonder. Is this how nature reacts when some species becomes a parasite. The parasites turn upon themselves... cleansing the earth. Maybe I am just in denial. I often wonder .. if someone near to me died... would I be happy that the world has one less person ... or should I be sad... because someone died. After all, in the larger scale of things, the smaller the population, the better it is. It's just a thought that strikes my mind every now and then.

Just to confirm... I AM NOT in favour of killing people. I just wonder about the advantages or disadvanages of such human behaviour in the larger scheme of things.

Love....seems to seek me out for no reason whatsoever. I wonder if it is a true feeling. Whether I am truly capable of loving. Maybe I am just a shallow being... just like I have always been... just like I was extremely fascinated by a fish tank for the first few weeks. And then...got bored of it.. leaving my mom to do all the work. Maybe that's the reason I feel scared to commit. Because..I spend too much time trying to decide on what I truly feel. And maybe...I am too scarred to be open with my feelings.

Actually..I am just lying. I am not in love now. But the above thoughts still hold true. I still have the problems.. and the strife .. I associate with love. Maybe I am only meant to be a "nice guy". Sorry V, you did say that nice guys dont finish last.. but ... nice guys do find it hard to get ahead in the game. They place the loved one on a pedestal, and are too afraid to take advantage of her at the point when she is down. And thats the only time one remembers the nice guys. Thats chivalry, isnt it.

Or maybe...nice guys are just too much of scaredy cats to really do anything. And so... life goes on.

I do think of myself as a nice guy. And I dont intend to be one all the time. I guess it'll take me a while... but I'll be out flying on wings of confidence soon enough:).

~>Ode<~...to those who really dont have a clue in life. To the nice guys.

Cheers.