Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Introspectively non introspective

I am sleepy today.Again. Once again... was up till 2 am and up by 6:45. 2 nights of sleep depravation is not good. And since college has started... havent had much time to blog.

Today is Addy's birthday. He turned 21. Now... he need not worry about not getting into bars. This is one guy who likes his alcohol. So... he always wanted to get into bars.. but couldnt really. On the other hand... here I am.. 22 years old with no inclination to drink. Interesting eh? The vagaries of life.

well, anywayz.. we went to Addy's place at midnight ... and a bunch of people were there. Around 15-20 atleast. Addy's a popular guy... he throws some pretty big parties and knows a pretty big variety of ppl. So.. he will prolly have a party later this week. And I hadnt had dinner ( was meeting up with various ppl all evening). so.. walking back from Addy's place, stopped at Mad Mushroom and ate cheap pizza. And Clive was drunk. (he had a few... maybe more than a few...sips of vodka). He was funny;).

feeling really sleepy now. Am at work. Am also supposed to take some friends around..AND meet up with my team. Crazy. Why do I get myself into these corners..I dont know.

I am getting used to not being online. It feels funny... and I am getting bored sitting at my computer. I dont know. Is it just a phase? I havent felt this way since I got my first computer 2.5 years ago.

Hmm.. mail time. Need to send some e-mails out. Have fun:)

Mohan

Monday, August 30, 2004

Raksha Bandhan AKA Rakhi

Today... is Rakhi AKA Raksha Bandhan. It is a kind of festival celebrated across India. On this day.. sisters tie a little piece of (often colourful) string on their bro's right hand (Something like a friendship band). My sis sent me a Rakhi (as this string is called) and asked me to get a girl to tie it in her stead. I got a friend to tie it for me and gave her chocolates.

The Rakhi is used to signify a promise to help and protect. A promise to be there to help. Girls dont only tie a Rakhi for their brothers. In some parts of the country... women tie a Rakhi to their husband. Some tie Rakhi's to good friends who have been there for them. Sometimes... it is not that nice. Especially in school... some girls will go and tie a rakhi to those guys in their class who claim to love them. Then... it theoretically becomes a brother sister relationship... and he cannot 'chase' her after that. But then again... such things dont really matter in the long run. If a guy and girl end up liking each other, such fake rakhi relationships dont hold.

Rakhi is not necessarily for Hindu's. There is a famous story of a hindu queen in India (Rani Padmini or something like that). She was attacked by her enemies. Her husband died in battle. In those times, the women of a kingdom would commit suicide by jumping into a fire rather than let themselves be captured by the enemy. In a desperate attempt, she sent a messenger with a Rakhi to the Mughal Emperor. (I believe it was Humayun, the father of the famous Akbar... and great grandfather of Shah Jahan who built the famous Taj Mahal). The emperor was so touched that he immediately set out with a Big army to help the queen. Unfortunately, he was too late. The queen had commited suicide in the fire to protect her 'honour'. But her 'brother', the mughal emperor, routed her enemies and set the queen's young son on the throne as king. That can be the power attributed to that string... that friendship band.

All said and done.. it is a nice custom.

I had a greatt weekend. I ended up driving 950 miles in all... but it was worth it. I got to spend time with 2 girls!!! Well... they are just friends (More like rakhi sisters....) but still!! I got lost in Louisville...(though some excellent (uhummmm) navigators got me back on track). Just the great company was worth it.

Need to call my parents. And my grandmas.

Ok...I have this urge to shave all my facial hair. It almost makes me feel feminine... but hey.. if it surprises / impresses the girls..it may be worth it.

Awriight... what else. I need to put up some pics.

Ok... classes are taking their toll. I started falling asleep in classes already. I came home at 1:45 am, and sat down doing HW. Slept at 4:15 and woke up at 9 to continue working on it. Not enough sleep == sleep in class!! Bah
And no..I AM NOT a homework maniac. Just that... I need to do homework if I have any intention of understanding a class / doing well in my exams:)

take care pplz. I'll be back soon enough!!

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Driive

well.... sorry for not updating earlier

I'm spending this weekend with friends. Drove to Normal, IL to pick one of them up. Now.. back at Purdue. Will be leaving for louisville, KY shortly to meet up with another friend. So... just been busy. Will be back on Sunday. I think.:D

Mohan

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Walk a wayy

Today...I had a class at 7:30. And nothing after that. Ok. Thats acceptable. It was drizzling.. but I still made it to class on time.

I got my work schedule yesterday. I work from 11-1pm and 3pm-7pm. Its easy work. The lab I have to work in is a 2 minute walk from home. But..before I can go there..I need to head out to the middle of campus and pick up keys. Thats a 15 minute walk. And by then..the sun had come out!! GAH. So.. 8:30.. eat breakfast at McDonalds and head back home. Forget umbrella....so walk back after getting halfway home and then.... head back home. Then.. head to Campus at 10:40 to pick up keys and walk back to workplace. Then at 1, head back to campus, drop off keys and head back home. Again at 2:40, head back to campus to pick up keys for 2nd shift. Now.. have to wait here till 7 without falling asleep. And get some work done. I hope I have burnt atleast a micrometer of my fat layer. Hopefully. Liiife is awesome isnt it?

I Love you!!

"I love you!!" I dont remember the last time I told my parents that. I have always assumed that they knew it. I love them. These last 2 days...I have been thinking a lot about them. Enjay's recent blog about a father who was misunderstood by his son really touched me. I had recently read Satanic verses..in which... a main character has a fight with his father... and leaves him and goes away. In the end..they do come back together... but the period of time when they had a fight left me feeling odd. I know I dont always agree with my parents. In fact..today.. my mom called me and I called back. And my dad started lecturing me on the need to cut down on extra curricular activities (blogging... thinking of girls..etc) and to concentrate on studies. I calmly told him that my last sem really didnt matter... as this semester's GPA wouldnt be sent in when I sent in my applications. Not that I wouldnt study ... but simply to let him know that it is OK. He worries for me.. and I know that. And I love him for what he is:) After all.. I do have my lovely mother on my side:D. To convince my dad:D.

I Love You. Three powerful words. I have used them sparingly with the people I really care for and love. (I have ... on occasion.. joked around with some friends... and said it... jokingly .. to them.) But .. to the people I really care for.. I say it rarely. And when I do...I need to acknowledge the value of the words. Sometimes..I see people sign off saying Love ya (My sis does it all the time..to my utter chagrin) . I feel... I should tell people I love them... with all my heart. The words should come from the heart... not automatically .. while saying goodbye. I dont know.. maybe I AM wrong. Maybe I should say the words more often. But I dont want to spoil the value that they hold for me.
So... to all those who already know it. I Love You.


-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------



Ok... I didnt want to mix this with the above part. Just an update on my day. Just have been really busy. Had 3 classes. have a paper due this friday!! Went to a friend's place and ate Golgoppas that her mom had sent. :D Yumm. Then went out and ate dinner with another friend. yeah yeah...I'm growing fat. So... I walked all the way back home. I am planning a trip to meet my friends who just joined grad school this weekend. I also got my work schedule. I work almost all day tomorrow.(6 hours during the day that is:p)Hopefully..I can get saturday off.

It was raining cats and dogs too!! soo..I pulled out my trusty umbrella from my bag (which I had taken coz of my class)...and used it. Unfortunately...there seems to be some hole in the umbrella. End result.. some amount of water leaked onto my head:|

I somehow feel distant from my friends from india. Somehow..dont seem to be able to relate with them that much. Need to work on that. After all...I AM close to them. Just dont have anything much to talk about. I spend all my time saying.. "What else?". Maybe I should redirect them to my blog so they can read up on my life.

I called up my parents today. Was good talking with them. They were in shirdi. Dad'll be heading to qatar soon. New Job.. new place. Hope all goes well for him.

Anywayz...I better sleep. Its 1:30 (gawd..I've been writing this blog for 45 mins!!)....and I got a 7:30 class again. Gniite pplzz.. Njoyyyy!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

In a crabshell

Just been feeling kinda solitary for a while..for no apparent reason. I've logged off all my instant messengers ( compared to being logged on 24/7 360 days a year!! on 3 different networks). I havent really done any thinking either. Just sat back and relaxed. Slept all evening. Spent some time listening to friends chit chat (looking very disinterested.. but whatever..) and basically.. whiled away my entire day. So... next few days..I dont think I'll blog too much. (especially with my dad warning me et al ;). :p ;). hehehehe. ) I should also start working on homework.

In other news, I am currently reading a book called Gideons spies that talks about the Israeli mossad and how it got away with stupendous things. Interesting book. Also checked out "Pride And Prejudice" today. Wanted to see what makes it a book that women read again and again. I have met atleast 4 women who have claimed to read that book a few dozen times.(including my sis). So.. lets see:)

Well..till next time.. do be good. Do take care... and DO have an AWESOME time.

Mohan

Monday, August 23, 2004

Friends

Hmmm...

Today has been a nice day. I had nice professors in class (only 3 classes too!!). It was a nice day...a bit hot.. but nice. Kept bumping into friends... acquaintances etc. Actually spent a lot of time today catching up with ppl.... Made me feel all warm and fuzzy and happy inside. And wanted too!!.

Only bad thing about all of today was my adventure in catching the bus back to my apartment. There were 2 bus routes that go past my apartment. So... after waiting 15 mins for any bus to arrive, I get into the first one that went by my place. The bus always had to stop in the middle of the road( as the right hand side lane was for those turning right.. while the bus went straight). Anywayz... the bus always stopped last semester. Today... the driver refused to stop there!!! He dropped me off at the next stop.. a good 8 minutes walk away. Well... thats 15 + 8 + all the time I spent in the bus. Walking back from class would have just taken me 20 mins. Hmmm... darnit!!! What can I say!! So..I dashed off a letter to the bus ppl (www.gocitybus.com). Hopefully...they'll help me out!! After all...lazy ppl like me need buses. And within 20 mins of arriving home, I had to head back to campus again (Having prudently decided to walk back). I had a 2 hr break... and I spent most of it getting onto a bus to get me home!! Gah!!!

Well... I have a niice class at 7:30 am tomm. And its already midnight. I better shower and sleep soon if I intend to wake up for my class. My roommates are both fast asleep already!! (One of them has the same class as me). And I was out too late visiting friends. Ahh well... gniite folks:D

Mohan

Land Ahoyy

It is 2AM. My roommates are sleeping. I am tired..but my day has left me with a bad taste in my mouth (or in my head?). I have been crabby and mean all day. It started yesterday itself..but today I have been especially mean to some ppl. Trying to demand attention I guess. I am mean with them and when they are mean to me, I get angry and walk away, hoping that they will come after me to pacify me.. and when they do...I dont get pacified. Maybe I was just feeling lonely. I try to fill the absence of a "quality" relationship with "quantity" but my entirely human mind is not satisfied.

Classes start from today. less than 4 months for me to graduate now. 16 weeks of classes. And I dont even feel different. I havent done any of the usual hectic stuff I do before classes start. Maybe I no longer really care.

Also felt some pangs of extreme affection for the opposite gender. They made me listen to some slow lovelorn songs.. and sigh deeply. I know I wasnt like this all the time. With classes starting, will I get busy enough to have an easier life? Will I be able to overcome this thought consuming affliction? Or will I be able to achieve some progress in fulfilling it? I wish I knew...

As Vadergrrrl said so nicely... just as the comments by those showing support and love provide joy, the absence of comments by some other ppl can be much more painful. So.. no comments for this post. This has just been an outpouring of a tormented soul..at a time of weakness. It shall pass... and the excessive happiness shall return soon enough. Just gotta wait out these things....let the pain be sucked out like poison from a wound. Leaving it in there will only cause the wound to fester and get infected.

Now my eyes have begun to droop..and the mind has begun to form images of written words in a lovely dreamland. Thus shall the post end.

- Mo So low

Sunday, August 22, 2004

sheesh!

Ok. *sigh* *whew* I dont know...
its 2:30 am.. and I just got back. Today, I rented a car for a friend as he had to pick up another friend from the airport. This guy cannot say no to any girl... so.. he said sure. So.. well.. he told me that the flight was at 10:30pm at Indianapolis airport.. which is a 45mins to 1 hr drive away. So.. all set.. we rented a car (200 miles limit) and chilled all day. At 8:30 he calls me. Emergency. The friend is at Chicago (150 miles away) and has been there since 6:30. So... we head out. We dont even know the way... but having a cell phone helps:D. Our friends back here looked up the directions on mapquest and told us. Anywayz.. ultimately.. we ended up reaching there at 11:30 (got some bad traffic on the way).... then... right back to Purdue... The roads were empty... so I managed to drive at an average speed of 85-90 mph. I know I know... it's wrong to speed... but I was just too much in a hurry to get back home. So.. here I am.. back at Purdue...in one piece. The rental car is 100 miles over the limit. And life goes on. I dont know...I guess I am kinda pissed as the girl didnt even thank me. Ah well. Women get away with everything. Almost everything. Darnit.

Mohan

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Ah Ah Ah Ahchoooooooooo

Ok... this is my happy blog for the day:D. I feel happiest when I help spread some thoughts...some knowledge (and basically drown out everyone else with my shouting)

Well, anywayz ... so...I decided to put in a li'l note about sneezing. I have been sneezing as long as I can remember. I sneezed little ahchoos when I was a baby... bigger achoos when I was older... and multiple achoos now. Especially in the morning..when I wake up, I sneeze a few dozen times waking up my poor roommates (Especially Raghu who has decided to work 9pm to 5 am and sleep 9am to 5pm.) I also sneeze during exam times. Thats when I take out all my dust covered books. I am allergic to dust.. and so.. reading those dust ridden books makes me spend atleast an entire day of examinations sneezing and sniffling.

There have been times when I have sneezed so often that my nose went raw and my cheeks would ache from all the expansion and contraction (surprisingly...I never got tired of talking!!). I am a kerchief guy. I hate using tissues. I'd rather pull out my wet (occasionally) kerchief and sneeze into it. So.. I do have to jump to getting my kerchief out in time. Else... my hands...or sleeves have to do:D

So... how often do YOU sneeze? Do you like sneezing? Do comment.

Well anywayz... I am a happy dude. I like being happy. All my acquaintances... friends...relatives; ppl who teach me..who care for me.. each and every one who makes an impact on my life ...all of them make me happy. I am. Therefore I am happy.
I really thank Lisa who has been a frequent visitor and commentator on my blog. And Enjay .. and Matteo... and everyone else too. You guys make me happy and proud. But in all truthfulness, I learn a lot from the wonderful comments I have received on this blog. And of course... all the blogs I visit. The insight into another human being makes me a nosey cat... but who cares as long as it teaches me more about life:D

a quote from Patch Adams:

Hunter Patch Adams : "What's wrong with death sir? What are we so mortally afraid of? Why can't we treat death with a certain amount of humanity and dignity, and decency, and God forbid, maybe even humor. Death is not the enemy gentlemen. If we're going to fight a disease, let's fight one of the most terrible diseases of all, indifference. "

I like to think I am like Patch Adams .. afflicted by the terrible "Excessive Happiness"!! :D;):D

Friday, August 20, 2004

Survey

I got this forward. Typically I dont forward them... but this one...is one I had read earlier.. and is something that I somewhat agree with... atleast partially.

well.. here it goes:
Last month, the U.N. worldwide conducted a survey. The only question asked was, "Would you please give your most honest opinion about a solution to the food shortage in the rest of the world?"
The survey was a HUGE failure.
In Africa they did not know what "food" meant.
In Western Europe they did not know what "shortage" meant.
In Eastern Europe they did not know what "opinion" meant.
In the Middle East they did not know what "solution" meant.
In South America they did not know what "please" meant.
In Asia they did not know what "honest" meant.
And in the USA they did not know what "the rest of world" meant


The last line...

More pics, and wallets

Well... after all that flattery..I decided to put the rest of my pics online.They are in reduced quality... so do let me know if u want something in higher quality.
~>Click Here<~ for the pics.

Wallet time!!

a few coins ( once they accumulate... I usually put away the pennies, 5 cents and 10 cent coins into a box)

Student ID, Drivers License (Got that After 2 years of planning!!!), 2 Credit cards... 1 debit card.. A few religious pics.. a bunch of Indian Rupee notes that my grandma gave me before leaving (To buy stuff at the airport... but I just kept em), a few random receipts, a few visiting cards from ppl I met, random discount card for my hair cut, various other cards like Social Security (Though I wonder if I am really eligible for that)... health insurance... some random scraps of paper with email id's and no names.. or phone numbers and no names.

Kool.

So... thats my wallet. Shiny black li'l thing... :D


Thursday, August 19, 2004

Marriages are made in Heaven...or Are they??

Arranged marriages. A lot of ppl in the US seem to have some difficulty in comprehending arranged marriages. Just like ppl in India have difficulty in accepting love marriages.

So... I often wondered... Why are marriages arranged in India? How are marriages arranged? and is it in any way better than love marriages?

In my quest...I have come across various reasons. As I see it, arranged marriages are just a way of finding a good spouse for ur kids. An experienced older person may be a better judge of character and may be able to select the right spouse for someone. Also, arranged marriages end up with finding spouses within the same 'caste'. People of the same caste typically have the same type of lifestyle..the same kind of background..etc. So, it is easier to find something in common.. and do things in common. This helps in adjusting better as there is something in common.

Also... ppl approach an arranged marriage with open minds. They dont really know the other person too well (Though.. nowadays... they spend time after the engagement getting to know each other better). This seems to have a somewhat good effect on marriages. Especially since divorce is usually unacceptable in India. So... ppl will strive to save a marriage.

As such, I feel that the arranged marriage system works in the Indian culture. Arranged marriages typically work through family networks. With the huge joint families... it is easy to find a suitable groom. Someone always knows someone who knows someone who's brother in law's wife's brother is just right. I've seen it at work.. and it is amazing. Nowadays...with the nuclearization of Indian families, marriage bureaus are becoming more popular... but the family route is always explored.

In the US, .. families are very nuclearized. As such, love marriages are encouraged. From an early age..the concept of girl friends.. and boy friends is observed and encouraged by parents. And with love marriages..comes a different kind of life. To me, the US seems to have a totally different kind of ppl. A lot of people here think a lot about their own happiness... rather than the happiness of the family. I mean... not that they dont think of the family at all.. but self comes before family. I dont say its wrong.... just different. Thats why, a lot of the times, I see some really funny reasons for a divorce. Something which could have been worked out... but they rather not. But then again... I read blogs like BeFrank's and I realize I should not generalize.

I really dont know where I am going with this. I want to talk a lot more... about US society.. and society in India... but the more I think... the more contradictory statements keep coming to mind. Like how India is all about arranged marriages and all... and yet... how much happens behind the doors that noone knows about. About ruthless families... domestic violence... dowry harrasment..etc. About how there isnt enough appreciation for a strong family bond in the US.. and yet... ppl are so successful. How TV is saturated with love and sex...in a very matter of fact way... even cartoons and PG films talk about kissing and making out. How kids say that they are tired of their parents and want to move out as soon as possible. And yet... ppl are happy being so independent.

All this makes me realize. No one method is perfect. Each has its advantages and disadvantages.

In my family, love marriages are frowned upon. it's just a matter of being against the normal grain of life. Yet, that does not stop me from having my crushes and loves. Sometimes, I have a crush... but hide it deep down... till I get over it.. because I know that things wont work out that easily. I know that I dont have the strength to totally oppose my parents... make them worry. If a crush can withstand my own self criticism...I know that that person is truly worth any amount of trouble. I am happy that my parents are very understanding... and trust me to make the right decisions. So..hopefully... I will be able to make them happy in whatever I do. After all, I know the kind of sacrifices they had to make in order to make me who I am.

I guess I have been wandering about a lot now. will get going for now. Njoyy peeps:)

P.S. Should I list out the contents of my wallet like gemmak or Lisa?? Hmmmmm

Road trip pics

click here for some selected pics from my trip. 36 out of a total of 460 clicks. Rest.... not now... maybe later:D

Njoyy!!

Theme Song

:D

"What the world needs now
is love, sweet love
it's the only thing
that there's just too little of
What the world needs now
is love, sweet love,
no not just for some
but for everyone.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Road Trip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

Finally.... I'm back from my road trip. 10 days...on the road. 10 days of awesome travels.

Recapping....

9th: We left around Noon... and drove more or less straight to Buffalo NY. We wanted to stop on the way but the Hostel was packed. So, using Raghu's internet access (via the phone) we managed to get into the hostel at Buffalo. Reached there at 2am (Almost got lost). And promptly went to sleep. Of course.. we ate White Castle on the way!!

10th: Walked around Buffalo ... taking photos..etc. It was a self guided walking tour. After that... drove down to Niagara which was less than an hour away. AWESOME place. Totally fell in love with the place.. and was totally awestruck by the total power of nature. Totally enjoyed the view from the 'Maid of the Mist'. We drenched by the awesome falls. Unfortunately... my camera kept getting wet....so the photographs were'nt the best. From there, we headed out by 4:30 to Williamsport, PA where my good friend Vamsi stays. AWESOME scenery on the way. Had to drive through dense fog.... winding hilly country... ... simply beautiful. Spent the night with Vamsi... ate some AWESOME food that his aunt prepared and saw a movie with Vamsi (On his laptop... in the room he had booked for us)

11th: Ate some more home cooked food (breakfast).. said goodbye to Vamsi who had work. So.. we drove down... hoping to get a place at washington. But that place was full too.. and pretty darned expensive. So.. we ended up reserving a room at a hostel in knoxville, MD. Awesome hostel. Right next to the potomac river... and at harpers ferry, which is connected with the US civil war. It was also the midpoint for the Appalachian hiking trail which runs from Maine to Georgia. On our way down, we came across Baltimore.. and I suggested we explore the place. So..we went in...with no detailed maps... and following the signs to the zoo, we ended up in a shady part of the city. We got totally scared ( Somehow.. reading about gangs.. and all... makes me quiver with fear whenever I go into shady neighbourhoods). So.. we kept driving around... trying to get out... but no matter what we did.. we ended up in the same place... on state highway 40!! Finally..we decided to simply leave Baltimore and head out to Knoxville.

We got to the hostel around 5:30pm. The owners were wonderful ppl... and the ppl there were soooo nice. So.. we just relaxed that night... ate out at a local small restaurant... and went for a walk till the potomac river. When we came back, one person there was playing the guitar and singing wonderfully...some old english songs that Clive knew. Clive sat around drawing..while I was reading.

12th: woke up at 5:30am to catch the 7am train into DC. Reach DC... walk around looking at various buildings (Capitol bldng.. supreme court... monument...etc)... and went into the Air and Space Museum. We spent the entire day just walking around.... and ended the day at the White House. After that... it started drizzling... and we headed back to catch the train back. We missed the first train... and the second train was delayed by over 1.5 hrs due to some damage caused by the heavy rains. So... we get back to the hostel... and I wrote my blog out (They had high speed net).

13th: Friday the 13th... wasnt as bad as it could have been. We woke up at 5:30 again.. caught the train again... and , taking V's advice, got ourselves a subway daily pass each (Cheaper as the train ticket collector had totally forgotten to ask us for the tickets.. while we had been faast asleep). Well, anyway... we went and saw the Museum of Natural History. Before we could go in... we were taking pics of the Smithsonian castle. Clive... cleverly... had put his umbrella's holding thread under his belt. The Unbrella promptly decided to slip out. It probably went out for a run... coz when we went back searching for it 5 mins later.... it was GONE!! Clive was heartbroken. Yet, we managed to be amazed by the museum. My camera's batteries died on me at this stage. Ah well!! We caught the subway to Dupont circle where we ate lunch. Then we saw a National Geographic exhibit on dogs.. reminded me of goldie.. my aunt's dog back in India... that I spent sooo much time with. After that... we were planning to go see the lincoln memorial... which just didnt happen (was getting too late to catch the train). So.. we started towards the memorial.. and then headed back (making it just in time for the train). Back at the hostel... ppl made applie pie that they offered to us. The owner entertained us with magic tricks (her father was a magician).. and anectodes from various hikes and about various hikers. I read myself to sleep as we didnt need to be up by 5:30 again

14th: we got up earlier than planned as a hurricane was supposed to hit the east coast. So.. instead of heading to DC and seeing the lincoln memorial and the air and space museum at Dulles (With the AWE inspiring blackbird and concorde displays), we headed down to Duke univ to meet my friend V. We reached there in the afternoon and she promptly took us out on a tour of the campus. Unfortunately... the famous local tobacco museum was closed. ;). Surprising .. considering that Duke was setup by a tobacco baron. He had offered to double Princeton's endowment if they changed their name to Duke. Princeton refused. So... James Buchanan Duke (I believe), came to a smaller college at Durham, NC that readily accepted his offer. So.. everything at Duke is in direct competition with princeton. The Huuuge .. and beeyootiiful cathedral (built in the gothic style after the one at Princeton) was built exactly 1 foot taller than the one at Princeton. Well... we saw the beeyootiful Duke gardens.. walked around the cathedral as a wedding was being held inside... and then went out for some coffee / hot chocolate where we played Chinese Checkers (I played Valiantly... but lost:( ). Then came eating out at Bojangles... and came home. Later that night... we experienced a Duke med school party up close... and met some really cool Doctors to be!! Then just chit chatted with V and her housemate after which we promptly fell asleep.

15th: India's Independence day. We didnt even realize that. We just ate some awesome pancakes (with m&m's mixed into the batter) that V made for us. Then V took us out for the service at the Duke Cathedral. It was my first ever visit to a church. I went in with a doubtful.... after all my experiences with fanatical christian preachers. I spent too much time analyzing how the preacher's words could be interpreted in the wrong way.. but in the end... it was pretty enjoyable. Then we headed out to the great smokey mountains!!! It rained a bit on the way.... but we managed to get there safe and sound. Clive used his Mensa card to get 20% discount on a room at Cherokee, NC. it was a Comfort Inn close to the smokey mountains national park inside an Indian reservation. That evening... we just relaxed and watched TV.

16th: We got up around 9... ate the complimentary breakfast... and headed out to see some scenery and do some hiking. We ended up hiking to the top of Mt. Le Comte (around 5000feet elevation) ( total of 11 miles... of strenous hiking). By evening.. we were dead tired..so we just went back to the room and crashed.

17th: We just drove around some empty roads... through clouds... or maybe fog. It was AWESOME. After that...we tried hiking to see some waterfalls. But we were sore all over. So.. we headed back by afternoon and crashed again..just watching TV

18th: We were planning to see some more stuff on our way out... but we were tired. So.. we just drove straight out.. and arrived at Purdue at 5:30pm local time. And thats where the journey ended.

Clive and I both were afflicted by the lovvveee disease... and we kept singing "All this world... needs now.... is Love...Sweet Love..." and that became the theme song for our trip.

Well... I want to write so much more... but will probably just spend a few hrs putting up pics. Enjoyy.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Hurricane time!!

Hmm... Washington...

we have seen a lot here... and yet.. a lot remains!! We were planning to go around.. see some more before heading south to North Carolina... but now.. it appears that Hurricane Charley is all set to make our life troublesome. So.. we will probably head down quickly... early in the morning.

It's been a good day.. and tiring too. Trains were on time... museums were open... so we went to the Museum of Natural History... pretty darned nice one I say. Ate lunch... and tried getting to the Lincoln Memorial when we realized that it was getting too late. So.. we caught the train back. And here I am ..typing up this blog.

Met some really nice ppl here at the hostel. The hostel owner was entertaining us with card tricks. Another gentleman here was playing the accordian. Chit chatting.. eating... fun stuff!! Well... it will be sad to leave this tomorrow. My friend wants to sleep in till 7 or 8 (Especially as we have been up by 5:30 these last 2 days!)

Spoke with my sis today. She had left a message saying that my parents were worried... especially as our group was originally supposed to also include a girl;). My parents ... are reallly scared that I would elope with some girl;). Hehehehe. Actually.. I think only my dad is scared. Especially as this is not something that the Indian culture approves of. My mom's cool!! So....told my sis that I was out travelling with just a guy friend (Still not totally safe... but still;) hehehe)

Well..I'm just rambling.. and not saying anything of importance...so... shall take my leave of you all!!

Over n Outtt pplz:)

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Rain Rain Go away... little Mohan wants to play

Awriiiight.

Today.. we were up by 5:30 am as we had to catch a 7 am train to downtown Washington DC. We got there... by 8:30 and just strolled around.. taking pictures ... seeing BIIIG buildings. Somehow..I believe, Americans have an obsession with BIG. I mean.. there's nothing wrong with that... but it still is funny. It IS a big country.. with a lot of resources..so I guess.. BIG makes sense.

After walking around capitol hill... and seeing a li'l bit of the big buildings.. we went into the Smithsonian Air and Space museum. It came highly recommended by a bunch of ppl (Including a nice hiker guy we met yesterday who had been hiking from Maine for the past 2.5 months.. and plans to hike till Georgia and he gets there in around 1.5 months. Simply amazed me ... walking cross country for 4 months... through mountains.. living in the wilderness .. all alone. He was following the Appalachian trail. We also met a father-son duo who were doing a bit of hiking)

Anywayz... enough digression. I believe I belong to the Vaatha type of ppl as per Ayurveda (The ancient Indian medical system)... and basically the vaatha type of people are very fickle... very energetic.. but they cannot stick with anything. Changing thoughts.. new ideas... is what makes them exciting.) You could google it up.. am too tired (And not at all used to this computer...). Sheesh..I was digressing again. Well.. we walked arouuuund the museum till late afternoon by which time we were starving. So...we go to the McDonalds in the museum... which was toooooo expensive for us. So..we walked out eating some snacks that Vamsi's aunt had made for us (Muruku as we call it in telugu.. slightly spicy strips of fried flour). We walked and walked... and walked... and Clive had decided to eat Chinese food... so we walked to China town.. and ate at some crappy restaurant with rude waitresses. Well... thats big city I guess.. and what we expect from a cheap restaurant.

Well.. after that we walked to the White House ... and took pics and sat around... and then it started raining. And raining. AND Raining. Luckily .. we had umbrellae (plural?) which werent tooo effective but helped to an extent. We just walked back to the railway station all the way across town (20-30 blocks..!!) .. with wind.. and drizzle.. and rain.. and all..hoping to catch a 4:55pm train. Unfortunately or fortunately... we reached the station exactly at 5pm. So... we just got some food for carry out and sat in the next train (5:35pm).... and we sat.. and we sat... and then we heard the announcement which made ppl go Uh-Oh. "Houston..we have a problem". Alright alright.. they didnt say that... but they basically told us some signalling system had failed.. and if we had alternate means of transport...to take them. Well..we didnt. So.. we waited.. and the trip ended up taking a full 3 hrs. Well we're home now... well rested (Having slept on the train) and happy. Onto having more fun tomorrow.

Gniite and sweetest of nightmares ppl.
Bai baii

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Ahh... the Beauty!!!

Weellll...

After 2 days of non stop travel... finally have access to the internet to this awesome little youth hostel at harper's Ferry near Washington and Baltimore... Its sooo cool.. right next to the Potomac River... and is surrounded by trees and hills... and such beautiful stuff.

Well... recapping our trip... Clive and I started out on Monday .. at around 12:30 pm. So... we started driving... and driving... and we had not had lunch. So... around 3pm... we saw a White Castle!!!! So..we thought... AWESSSOMEEE ... especially after watching the movie (Harold and Kumar go to White Castle). So.. we went in... and ordered food! Well...it wasnt as great as we expected... and that was kinda expected.... But our adventure had started off to a good start. So.. we drove ... and drove... and I thought.. we need to bed down some place cheap. We had the number for a hostel in Ohio ..in the middle of a national park. So...we called them.... but they were packed:(. And the next closest (On our route) was at Buffalo.. so.. we just drove on and reached Buffalo, NY at 2AM (local time). We had reserved beds at a hostel there (By calling Raghu, finding out their number.. and calling them before they closed). They gave us a code to enter the building and left the keys and all out for us. After sleeping the night there... we explored Buffalo for a few hrs in the morning...( Some awesome buildings) .. and then headed out to Niagara..

...
...
...
Words cannot explain it. I was dumbstruck by the size and the magnificence of the waterfalls. We took the Maid of the Mist (Boat ride almost into the falls)... and .... (awed silence..)

Well.. we spent a few lovely hours there. Beautiful weather... awesome times....

Then we drove down to meet my friend Vamsi at Williamsport PA. After the absolutely FLAT plains and corn fields of Indiana ... the pennsylvania landscape... with its trees.. and mountains.. and lakes and rivers...were SO niice!! And Vamsi's aunt made Awesome food for us!! Chicken and Biryani (Spicy Spicy Spiiiicy).. and breakfast again. So... we spent the night out at an inn that Vamsi arranged... and then started down for Washington. But... the hostel at Washington was fully booked. So.. we came to Harper's ferry.

This place is the halfway point for the Appalachian Hiking Trail. Really nice little hostel... with lots of hikers... friendly people. Internet access... lots of books..etc. So.. we plan to catch a train down to DC in the morning... and go to some museums...etc.

Well... it's been a really interesting trip for me. And I've been getting a lot of driving practice... we got lost in Baltimore (which we were passing through.. and decided to explore on a whim)... drove through cloudbursts (I could only see the tail lights of the guy in front of me..... BARELY!!)... drove the wrong side of the road(!!!! GAH ... GAH !!!)... drove at speeds I hadnt driven before (Upto 85-90 mph!!) and drove more than I had ever driven before. We walked through mist flowing down the roads.... kinda hiked down to the potomac river (First time I walked next to a river)... and so on.. and so forth.

So.... 3 days down...7 more to go!! Yayy....

Awriiight then... hope that kinda satisfies Lisa;).

And Lisa... Thanks for all the comments.:). I guess we share more than just a birthday. Maybe..someday..we should meet up and chitchat...

till laterzzz...

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Pics..... (neices and nephews)

Ok... my various neices and my one nephew.
I dont have pics of my most recent neice(she was born a few months ago in London)

Ankita, almost 2 yrs now... in London, UK:

----

My nephew Vedang (currently in Bangalore, India) and 2 neices, Anjeli and Siri (Both in Chicago)surround me..

---

3 neices. Left to right Sisira (In Bangalore), Anjeli and Siri

---
(Bhagya and Vaishnavi are in Bombay, India now)

Bhagya and Siri

---

Anjeli and Vaishnavi


So... here they are.. as requested by Lisa:D
My chweeet neices n sole nephew:D
More photos can be seen by clicking on the pics...
Njoyy:)

Haarol aan Koomah go to whytecassah (Singaporean pronunciation?)

Hahahahahahahahaha
I saw Harold and Kumar go to white castle today. As for the funky accent in the title.. thats how some of my singaporean friends talk (Got too many of em.. GAH)

Ahh.. the stereotypes... the cheetah... the whole accent business... Mann I havent laughed this hard in a while. And eating a fiine meal cooked by Borna's mom before that made it even better. Though I was the only person eating with my hand... Hmm.

Clive's finally arrived. He was delayed.. but managed to come down. So..can discuss plans for our road trip coming Monday.

Earlier.. woke up to my alarm (And the tornado alarm which is tested every saturday) at exactly the same time. Tried to wake up Raghu but he was ignoring me (I promise. He even confessed to that). Anywayz.. both of us got done by noon and headed down to campus to take photographs of Vikesh and Numphol after their graduation ceremony. !! . To think I'll be doing tht in 4 months and 12 days (Hopefully). ...
And Vikesh' parents treated us at an Indian restaurant.
Yayy.

And I was looking at Britty's mom's blog with pics of britty. Ahh!! She looks like an angel. Reminded me of my li'l neices... 2 of whom are in Chicago.. 3 hrs drive from here. And of the times they would come running down the stairs to wake me up as I slept in the sofa..having dozed off watching tv into the wee hours of the morning. Both of them would jump right on top of me as I groggily tried to push em off. Kids.. they have boundless energy. *sigh*. Should go to Chicago soon...

ANywayz... need to get plenty of sleep before our trip.
I gotta talk to ATT and see if I can change my calling plan...
get some cash..
printout locations and directions to some student hostels.
plan out a trip keeping in mind.. a 200 miles/day limit.

Ciaoz ppl. Enjoy:) And be well:).

Saturday, August 07, 2004

What is Justice?

I saw this movie tonight... with Raghu. "The Hurricane". It's the story of a boxer who is sent to jail... for 22 years... on the charge of killing ppl in a shootout. After 2 jury trials and other appeals, he finally goes to a federal judge who overturns the previous ruling based on an error in the judicial process. Now, the movie claims that Rubin Carter, the boxer in question, was abdolutely innocent, that he was framed and sent to jail where he suffered but still maintained his dignity.
Somehow... the movie seemed a bit biased.. so I googled his name. And I got this link. As per the above website, Carter was never cleared of his charges... and he isnt as innocent as the move proclaims. All I can say is... what is correct? How can an unbiased person judge? How do we know the truth?

Today, I also saw EnJay's blog. She spoke of WWII and the Hiroshima and Nagasaki bombs. Here, in the US, students are taught that this was a necessary evil. That even more ppl would have died if the Bomb had not been dropped.. as Japan would not have surrendered. 150,000 - 200,000 people killed in a matter of minutes.. and they say..its ok. 3000 people die in the 9/11 attacks.. and the country thinks it has the right to go against the world and launch pre-emptive strikes against other countries (Without substantial proof).

Justice...is what the victor sees. History is, after all, written by the victors.

Dont get me wrong. I am not anti-US. And nor do I support the 9/11 attacks. I strongly condemn anyone who believes that taking innocent lives will solve the world's problems. In fact, I hate terrorists. I see news of ppl killed by terrorists in India every day. EVERY FRIGGIN DAY.
I appreciate all that the US has done for the world, even if a majority of its humanitarian actions had a financial aspect to it. The nation, as such, is good. It has welcomed me, not with open arms, but even then. It has allowed me to stay in beautiful (a tad expensive) environs and has given me an excellent education (something I cannot dispute. I have been educated academically, socially and practically.). The people are pretty friendly. But everytime I open my mouth to speak out my views in this land of the free, my relatives tell me "Watch out. Dont oppose this nation publicly. You can be jailed". They are scared to talk freely.

Now, I dont hate the US. I love it. Why else would I be here? But I feel really really sorry for they do not know about the rest of the world. Their foreign policy is all about hypocrisy. It can launch pre-emptive strikes against Iraq (Which is already weakened due to sanctions... and was allowing UN inspectors to investigate its lands). It can ask, nay demand, that other nations sign treaties like the CTBT. But .. when India, for example, said it would launch pre-emptive strikes against Pakistan, the US STRONGLY urged India to step back (Basically threatening to take action if it did not). The CTBT (which bans nuclear tests)was not signed by the US with regards to its national concerns. The US expects the world to trust its actions.. but it does not trust the UN war tribunal courts to try its soldiers justly.

All said and done, I personally feel that the US believes that it behave like a strong Big Brother to the world. A Big Brother that can bully them into submission because it is too strong to be overthrown. I dont blame the americans for this. They simply have no clue!! I mean.. most of them are so involved with their own village/ county/ state/Country.. that the rest of the world seems to be a distant last. And as Micheal Moore, in his biased documentary, Fahrenheit 9/11, demonstrated that the people of the US of A..have been taken for a ride; convinced by a powerful media and a conniving government, into believing that the entire world is against the US.

Well. This is what I believe. I cannot say that I am perfect. If I were a citizen of the most powerful country of the world.. maybe I would think differently. If India were the most powerful country in the world, it may have a similar foreign policy. After all, noone is perfect.. and we cannot always expect politicians to be bound by such cheap things as morals and ideals. Thats why I do not blame the US for its actions. I just say that it should stop being a hypocrite. If it supports pre-emptive attacks, all nations should be allowed to do that. If it doesnt support the CTBT, it shouldnt ask others to ratify it.
The above thoughts basically are my feelings on the interpretation of justice. I do not intend to harm any american (Or anyone for that matter). So, please dont hunt me down and kill me. I have my views... and I hope that I am allowed to express them freely and without fear of persecution.:).


Links: US rejects CTBT
101 reasons not to go to war with Iraq
International War Tribunal court starts without the US

I've been writing this blog for over an hour now ... and can write for hours more. But I cannot see a solution to the problem I have mentioned. People will do as they always have. I do not have the capability or the media power to sway human thought. The only thing I hope is that education, and the internet, help people realize the futility in following a self centered life...
As I posted in a previous blog: "Success at any cost is like an unseasoned dish, it will not taste good"- Ratan Tata.

At times.. one has to consider the impact of one's actions on others (Be understanding and considerate). Thats what leads to peace and harmony and universal brotherhood irrespective of nationality, cast, creed, race, religion or sexual orientation.

Peace Out

Friday, August 06, 2004

Aaj ke Taaza Khabar (Todays Fresh News)

"A graduation ceremony is an event where the commencement speaker tells thousands of students dressed in identical caps and gowns that 'individuality' is the key to success." ~Robert Orben

Tomorrow... Numphol and Vikesh, both graduate. I have promised Numphol that I'd be there to take pics, meet his family... basically be awake and about. So.. gotta get up by 11 atleast tomm!! (Gotto be there at noon).

Graduation. Taking my GRE.. and looking up admission details online keep reminding me of my own... a mere 4 and a half months away. Dec 19th. I can hardly believe it myself. Will I manage to do fine? Will I graduate on that day? The Dude / Dudette upstairs only can tell. Or maybe he himself is not sure. Maybe He Himself/ She Herself is just watching my life unfurl (As He/She watches billions others) with infinite curiosity and excitement.. as we mortals follow soaps and TV series. I feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach... thinking of the possible rejections from colleges.. and possible acceptances too!!

Woah...I got a call from my supervisor.. n totally forgot I was writing this blog. For an hour !!

Continuing... I saw some beeyootiful birds today on campus, including a tiny humming bird going from flower to flower!! Just reminded me how wonderful this world is.. and how beautiful it is!!



P.S. I Love Life.

crass but content

Saw the last episode of Escaflowne now. Its almost 5 am.. and I got work at 8:30. GAH. I AM so bad. And I am turning too mushy. Enjoyying such mushy stuff? Raghu was laughing at me and at escaflowne. I mean.. he wasnt even watching it.. just listening to it (I put the volume pretty loud I guess... and how hard can it be to hear it across the room.)

Anywayz... sleeeep thyme...

(BTW...I loved hitomi's character in escaflowne. She is the main heroine... and she is a typical girl... SOOO messed up. She loves 3 different ppl.. at the same time!! and is jealous if they show interest in any other girl!! at the same time.. she is willing to sacrifice it all in the name of love!! hahahaha. I didnt know whether to cry or laugh!!!!)

Thursday, August 05, 2004

sadly happy... happily sad.. or why my name is not kookaburra

Well...
GRE done.
Verbal: 670/800 :(
Quantitative: 800/800 :):):)

total... 1470.

Happy...coz the score is prettty good.

Sad.... coz... I could have done better... I may NEED to do better... if I want to get into my dream college, namely, Stanford. So... now the question is.... should I retake it... should I not.
So.. yeah..

Onto other stuff:) Gotta help Pushkar buy a comp now. C

Exam time

Well.. as EnJay so promptly pointed out, I do live eat and sleep on my blog. It's a labor of lurve... especially this summer.. as everything else that I can do involves some work!!. Anywayz..got my GRE in 3 hrs... and I dunn wanna shtudy. So... with li'l butterflies in my stomach...I have put my GRE online application printout and my passport in my pocket. Prayed a bit to the 3 li'l idols of gods on my desk (and the few paper pics too)..put a li'l 'vibudhi' (sacred ash) on my forehead.. and I am more or less set. 3 hrs in advance. And I havent even prayed before exams in a loong time. Guess I AM scared.

Well...I was dead sleepy yesterday..so slept by 10 pm and got up at 4:30 am (and bunches of times in between). My roommate was up as usual...playing his soccer manager..or whatever.. and programming... alternatingly. So..checked mail..chit chatted... did my ablutions (I love that word... ablutions... gives me such a wonderfuly funky feeling)... and then sat down to read a few more words from the GRE word list.

Now....maybe I'll watch some escaflowne before I call the cab. Who knows...I just might be able to catch hold of a friend who may be able to drop me... he he he

Well..cya in a bit folks...

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Anime... that wonderful art form

Of late.. I have been on an Anime binge.
well... a lot of people do not seem to know exactly what anime is. Anime is a beautiful kind of japanese artform. People are typically drawn much more lifelike than anywhere else.. and great attention is paid to detail.. backgrounds..etc.

Some ppl find anime to be 'dirty'. The Japanese do tend to have a thing for girls in teeny dresses...in kinky poses. And... anime does tend to be more adult oriented than the typical western animations. However, the 'adult' anime is known as hentai... and is more like animated porn. Hentai...has its nice features.. but that isnt the point of this discussion. Basic anime has adult topics and is treated more like an average film is in holly/bolly wood. Love, sensuality, hatred and a myriad of other emotions are vividly shown. The characterization is simbly amazing at times. I mean...compared to my all time favourite tom n jerry... or duck-tales... etc, this seems to be so much more for me as an adult.

Anime has the power to move me. It doesnt matter that it is not real. The 'cartoons'..have the power to bring me almost to tears..or make me laugh my head off. Recently... I have seen "Ah, my goddess", "Kite"(a really well made hentai/anime mix..), Spirited Away..... and a few more.

Anime .. often comes as a TV series of around 12-26 episodes. This allows for greater plot and character development. The level of ingenuity displayed by these amazing artists and the amazingly creative worlds they create enthralls me. Many anime movies exist too. It all depends on the kind of story and the amount of detail needed.

Of late, I have been watching the series "Visions of Escaflowne". You can watch a trailer of the movie version here. I still have "Princess Mononoke" and "Memories" waiting to be watched... along with the multitude of other movies that I plan to watch but never get around to, even if they are handy;)

Of course, that does not mean that all anime is great. There is always bad anime (Like all those crappy movies). Thats why, I get my recommendations from here. Many anime TV shows can be downloaded. Some shows have been going on forever. Others.. have been converted to movies.

This blog.. was basically, to educate myself as well as others.. about the true nature of anime. My roommate, for one, cannot appreciate anime... or other east asian (mostly chinese) films. I, on the other hand, simply enjoy the crude humor, the funny translations and the great film making style . I am a big fan of Jet-Li (especially the kind of roles he likes to play... the funny hero...) and Jackie chan. Movies like Fong Sai Yuk... and Swordsman 2 are always a pleasure to watch.

As an art form, japanese anime films could never have been better. Latest technology mixed with a heady dose of creativity has resulted in some amazing animated classics. One has to watch them with an open mind, to see the beauty and the creativity oozing from them. If you still have your doubts, go ahead.. watch an anime film... Try it out. You will know... once you see.

Wonder if an essay this big would be good enough for the GRE. I doubt it. But oh well.. didnt want to read the word list .. so wrote this blog out. Most of the time, I only intend to write a few lines. But ... you see... I am too talkative.. even as a person. So, I HAVE to keep writing (just like I HAVE to keep talking). And the blogs get bigger .. n bigger.. n bigger.

Well.. If you have lasted this long through my blog, Thank You. And have a GREATT day. Really.

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

I be bad

Well..I didnt want to blog... Have been getting too personal n messed up... AND ignoring my GRE prep. Anywho...today..I came across this blog.. which again pointed to a nice website..with a nice slideshow...on the most seductive places in history ...
wow
I fell in love with the italian island.Li Galli (The gully?? )
wow
too beautiful...
Hmm...I'm already seduced.
wonder if this link'll work:
Italian Paradise ... ... ....
Original article at slate on MSN.
speaking of which... I've been reading a bunch of great articles on slate. Recently...they recommended firefox over IE. Thats it. A week later... the news reported that Bill gates wanted to sell slate. Poor guys. Their freedom of speech...has been taken away.

well.. maybe this blog will help me be able to write better essays on my GRE.
or maybe I should study entymology as M recommended ( he sez thats the best way to prep for the GRE).

Cheerios and Kelloggs...

Monday, August 02, 2004

I feel crappy (Another useless rant)

http://board.shodown.net/viewtopic.php?t=3213
http://www.discussanything.com/forums/archive/index.php/t-50538.html
http://www.languish.org/movabletype/archives/2004/06/utterly_useless.html

didnt have one link. Have 3...
am feeling like such a loser... useless. Absolutely like crap. Wondering where I went wrong...in doing what I am doing. I bragged abt my entire family to my poor ex roomie... and he listened to it all for the n'th time..uncomplainingly. I often pity my friends.. for being able to stand me for long. I know I can be obnoxious.

/me lists his shortcomings...
1) I am too obsessed with I me and myself
2) I dont really give a damn about anyone else
3) I loove praise.. though I cannot really give any. I have to often remind myself to ask others abt their life AFTER they ask me.
4) I am decently dumb.. though I pretend to be pretty intelligent
5) I am LAYYZEE
6) Ohh forgot...I am a stalker
7) Attention man-whore?
8) I actually believe all the praise my parents shower on me... and take it to heart!!
9) find excuses for my shortcomings too easy to find


I'll stop at the magical nine before I get too carried away...

Maybe that wont cheer me up...... maybe some good points?
1) I like to make other ppl laugh... and know inwardly that I conned them into laughing.. and they have no clue that it was all planned...
2) I am not that dumb either. I just am different (or so I convince myself each time someone outperforms me)
3) I do set high goals (Though I have difficulty achieving them... and then come up with excuses. Sometimes...I consider my own achievements as not good enough because they did not meet my own high standards... and I know that even if others did not.
4) I think I am considerate...not to others feelings all the time... but to others' comfort. I may tease ppl (been really mean to the good armenian I know)... but at heart...
5) This isnt helping at all. Makes me feel like some damn god of pride....
6) I have often wondered what ppl say behind my back.... and the few things I have heard...have changed the way I look at myself.. and the way I am. To be frank... I once overheard a friend pass a comment on me. He had left a voice mail for me..and forgotten to turn off his phone before talking bad abt me and my "High handedness" in front of his friends. I was livid for a few days. I almost blew my top in front of him. Maybe I was even mean to him a few times. Then...I realized...he was totally right in what he said. And I tried to change.... Hope I have...

coming back to the point... I often wonder what ppl say behind my back. After all.. that's the best kind of feedback. I know whats wrong with me.. and I try to change it. I know now... that I was a super geek in high school. My poor friends suffered a lot even then... as i read out to them from encyclopediae. And this they tell me today. If only I knew it then...

Another friend tells me his memory of me was as this funny guy with extremely tight pants.. Now...I never realized that. IF ONLY I DID!!.... I mean...some things I cannot help. But sometimes..I can try to change things...

well.. all this random writing is making me feel better.

Bye Bye for a while. I will try to stay away from my computer for now.

My views on ze education system

NOTE: THIS IS A RANT. IT PRAISES MYSELF SKY HIGH....WATCH OUT...

well..

earlier today... I was discussing education and types of students with V.... and I told her.. I considered myself to be an average student. Considering that I was, unashamedly, one of the toppers in my school till 10th grade, it was a revelation for me. 11th and 12th grades taught me a lot....given the kind of competition I faced. I never really did as good as I thought I was. Even at Purdue... I just scraped through some classes (Though I did manage to get many A's). And having friends with 4.0's doesnt really help. An online IQ test revealed that I was moderately above average.

So..I was thinking... why is that the case. Was I dumber than I thought I was? Has my intelligence deteriorated since I was a kid? I wonder..

I also wonder... has this got anything to do with my increased interest in social life?

Sometimes....I also realize.. my methodology of study is not suited for examinations. I study the subject... I dont like doing practice problems. I feel, if I know the theory, I should be able to solve problems. So..I read the theory... understand it as best as I can.. and apply it. But... most of the classes I take now...require me to know how to solve particular kinds of problems. The professors just repeat problems from old homeworks... and exams. So.... if I had done my practice problems... I would be able to solve it. However, if I knew the theory taught to me in class and through my homeworks...I would not be able to solve the problem immediately.This has let me down many times recently. EE438 comes to mind as a perfect example. I knew the theory... but made simple mistakes.... mathematical mistakes.... mistakes in simplification as I did not know that particular kind of simplification... and that made me do badly in some exams.
This becomes especially disconcerting when I understand everything happening in class. I understand what the prof is teaching... and occasionally... am even answering questions in class (Though I wonder if the locals tend to keep quiet even if they know the answers..)

So...I dont know ... am I wrong in wanting to learn only the subject and not study "For Exams"? I have done studying for exams for certain classes (EE414 comes to mind in recent times). I simply used my formula sheet to tackle the entire class and I managed to do just fine...Or should I do both? Work harder..?? I AM lazy. Dont get me wrong..I do my work. I do my homeworks... and I attend class regularly. But I am not the one to sit day in and day out solving practice exams and practice problems. I wonder...if I will ever be able to change myself. I have only become lazier since my 11th and 12th grades... but I believe I have learnt more outside classes than inside classes since then.

I guess this is just a confused rant. Forgive me if you read through it all....

calls.... n rabbits...n calls

well...

I spent all day on the phone today...... can you believe that.... like 5-6 hours. But atleast...got to talk with quite a few ppl... ppl I wanted to talk with.

And later... after all the phone calls...I was walking into my apartment... when I realized a stink.... coming from the basement... and walked down...to see a Dead Rabbit!! Ugghh. The poor tiny thing was lying in a corner....as dead as can be. And I didnt know what to do... So we got this old spare poster we had (I once got a set of 25 posters from Microsoft... and I use them to line my closets... etc...
So..Raghu and I took that poster.. somehow maneuvered it onto the poster... and dropped it into the dumpster. Felt sad. Raghu wanted to give it a proper burial.. u know... dig a grave...etc. But the sheer smell and the enormity of the task propelled us lazy folks to forget about it. Also, I am sure..the Purdue grounds staff wouldnt like us digging up their precious grass:D

well.. I should get motivated to study... got my GRE in 4 days...

Take it easy y'all

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Of Horoscopes and tin cans

Random quotes of the day
"Is a friend's problem really your business, or are you just titillated by the details?"

"Roller coasters can be nauseating. Try to hold on through the ups and downs."

Got these as my horoscopes for the day from Yahoo!! Makes any sense? Oh well. Interesting reads...
Though the first one makes SO MUCH sense. Just not my idea of a horoscope.... but still. I Mean... who doesnt really wait for the friend to pour it all out? Not like I dont care for em... and wouldnt like to help em... but the outburst... you know... the pouring out of the heart... makes it so much better. Gee...I think I sound almost like a woman. But hey... maybe I am metrosexual...you know... Hot n exy..n...n...alright alright...just in touch with my feminine side. Either way..it lets me get to know them better (ahh... my stalker personality giving me reasons now!!)
coming to think of it...I was also on the phone w/ my good friend ajay...who just landed in the US for his masters... for a few hrs. like a woman...Holy Macaroni..no no lets make it Idly (I like idly better than macaroni..)..Holy Idly!!

You may be wondering why I have 2 quotes there...I am a cusp..so I just check my horoscope a day later to see if my day was as they predicted.....yeahh...I am not superstitious...YEAHHH:D;) absolutely. I promise. No toothpaste promise...;)

Oh yeah... need to mention tin cans now. <-- Kool!! Mentioned em.
zoom burbura... adios and sweet nightmares. I should get back to sleep...it's like only 1 PM and I slept at like 6am...less than 7 hrs.. and both my roommate are sleepin....and this typing may wake them up....Mwuahahahahaahahahaha;)


Followers